this may be the hardest thing i've ever had to write....no , i'm not leaving the hobby , haven't scammed anyone , and am not post this for attention or sympathy....
i know that over the past few months i was (VERY SLOWLY) pulling cards to work on trades with quite a few people (drpid , timfsu2k , and robert326 spring to mind and i know there are quite a few more)....i'm not backing out and not making excuses , but i just want to let these 3 plus any others i didn't name know that i may need a little more time....
i was just involved in a car accident in which i hit and killed a pedestrian....(i say apparently because the police and paramedics said they are legally unalbe to release his condition to me but based on what i overheard one officer telling another he is not expected to make it) .....although the one eye-witness (who left before the police arrived) assured me it was not my fault , AND the police determined that i did NOT contribute to the accident since the man wandered into my lane without warning in a dark area , that doesn't do my car or my conscience any good ...i mean , really - i may have killed a man from my own neighborhood.....if he does indeed pass , there is NOTHING i can ever do to change it or make it up to his family ...nothing that can ease my conscience ....
anyway , now i MAY be home for the rest of the week as a result , but not sure how much i'm going to feel up to working with cards...perhaps working with cards will take my mind off this , and w will TRY , but i hope you understand if my heart isn't in it at the moment.....i also may now need to sell off some material i never intended to get rid of...that just depends on how things go with the car and any possible legal complications that may arise as a result...i hope it doesn't come to that ....not only do i not want to part with my PC , but even more i don't want the purpose of this post to become a prelude to my own begging for handouts from other members....
well...i feel i may have said too much and at the same time i could never say enough....at any rate , i just wanted to let everyone (and i fear if i tried to PM everyone i was dealing with i'd no doubt miss a few considering my current state of mind) know that if i either disappear or go overboard in the coming days/weeks , there is a reason and at some point i will be back to my normal low-key role here.....
thanks for listening ,
claude
i know that over the past few months i was (VERY SLOWLY) pulling cards to work on trades with quite a few people (drpid , timfsu2k , and robert326 spring to mind and i know there are quite a few more)....i'm not backing out and not making excuses , but i just want to let these 3 plus any others i didn't name know that i may need a little more time....
i was just involved in a car accident in which i hit and killed a pedestrian....(i say apparently because the police and paramedics said they are legally unalbe to release his condition to me but based on what i overheard one officer telling another he is not expected to make it) .....although the one eye-witness (who left before the police arrived) assured me it was not my fault , AND the police determined that i did NOT contribute to the accident since the man wandered into my lane without warning in a dark area , that doesn't do my car or my conscience any good ...i mean , really - i may have killed a man from my own neighborhood.....if he does indeed pass , there is NOTHING i can ever do to change it or make it up to his family ...nothing that can ease my conscience ....
anyway , now i MAY be home for the rest of the week as a result , but not sure how much i'm going to feel up to working with cards...perhaps working with cards will take my mind off this , and w will TRY , but i hope you understand if my heart isn't in it at the moment.....i also may now need to sell off some material i never intended to get rid of...that just depends on how things go with the car and any possible legal complications that may arise as a result...i hope it doesn't come to that ....not only do i not want to part with my PC , but even more i don't want the purpose of this post to become a prelude to my own begging for handouts from other members....
well...i feel i may have said too much and at the same time i could never say enough....at any rate , i just wanted to let everyone (and i fear if i tried to PM everyone i was dealing with i'd no doubt miss a few considering my current state of mind) know that if i either disappear or go overboard in the coming days/weeks , there is a reason and at some point i will be back to my normal low-key role here.....
thanks for listening ,
claude
